My dating and relationship experience , and what am I looking for

 I always find dating and marriage are such interesting topics that could catch my and a lot of people’s attention. 2 young people, they met each other by accident, or by planned in a cafeteria, at a prom or even in a bookstore, they start taking to each other, and they find they are attracted to each other in some extend, then they start dating, getting engaged, and finally step into marriage. What a lovely story! I used to have several dates and relationships, they were not always that good, however, they became the parts in my life, I found those experiences build me up on my personalities and make me become a new person. I do appreciate my every experience of the dating and the romantic relationship. The first time I started having feelings to a boy was when I was in in the elementary school, fifth grade. That time I didn’t even know what feelings are and what love is, I just simply found that boy attracted me by his intelligence and his humor. He sat next to me and I was very shy to talk to him. He was very helpful on my studies. At that time I was wondering if he was also interested in me. That was just a childhood thing of course, but the feelings I had for him had changed me somehow. I started working hard because I want to be in the same line with him, and I wanted him to start noticing me. With all those years, it was a naïve but wonderful experience in my life because I knew have feelings to someone could really change you, even your life somehow. I bet now he must be married with several children and he would never know that there was a girl who sat next to him used to crush on him. My first real date and relationship occurred when I was 20 years old, I started having a relationship with a guy who used to be in the same middle school with me. It was a magic that we met each other again after so many years. At first, I was not very interested in him since I didn’t find that we have a lot of things in common, I thought it would be fine that we just be friends. However, he really wanted to be with me that time, he showed a great concern about my life, we didn’t live close to each other, but he will come to me every weekend, asking me out, and escorting me home. He texted me basically everyday to ask about my well-being. I finally agreed with being with him after 6 months of our reunion. We were together as boy friend and girl friend for so many years. I have to say that was am awesome experience in my life since both of us were the first love to each other. However, we didn’t end up with each other for some reasons, but I was very grateful that he showed up in my life. And he helped me to realize that who I am and what do I want in the future to start a family. I had another short relationship with another guy after 2 years of the break up, and we broke up again, I was not very emotional after my second relationship went down because I wasn’t into that much, and he was the same way. I was single after that, and being alone was tough sometimes, but I do need time and space to think what kind of the relationship I want. As for me, I don’t want to date with people just for dating, I would like to find someone that have the common value with me, and willing to sacrifice for each other and for the entire family. I think that is the ultimate goal for me to have a date and a relationship in the future. It wouldn’t be easy but I am willing to take time to find the right person in my life.